that feeling of utter dispair

it's awkward and i feel that "connection" fading. it was different before. i didn't have a chance to think about you leaving; you just did, and i couldn't do anything about it. i was helpless. but now, i can feel you leaving. i know you're changing...or maybe, this is who you were all along. i just didn't want to admit it. i am still helpless, but only because i can no longer help you.